When plans get canceled, (it's life, things happen), I become very disappointed. I've finally figured out why: making plans for fun things is a number three on my priority list. When I actually have free time, and a friend has free time at the same time, I get excited. I look forward to that time. Trust me, my friends and I don't do miraculously exciting things together. We eat, watch YouTube videos or movies, eat more, walk to the park or lay on the ground laughing, talking, getting angry at stupid people or just laying there, on the ground. Yet I have the most fun laying on the ground with them.
A friend of mine has discussed getting together with me for three weeks. Twice I've been late or early, or she forgot or overslept or whatever and we haven't been able to get together. So today we rescheduled... again... for next Tuesday. I had to make plans to lay on the floor with a friend eight days in advanced. I want to cry with how stupid that sounds! I get it, high school is busy and crap- but it doesn't need to be this busy. And my friends are going to be my top priority after June 22nd- the official last day of school.
I love my life, I'm very blessed with awesome friends, loving parents, great math and writing tutors, the perfect church family ("perfect" for me anyway), and I'm not complaining. I'm inviting these feelings of anger and resentment in for tea and then showing them to the door. Alright, there's the door guys, drive home safely! I have eight days to look forward to my floor time, and five days to look forward to the end of high school. Freedom is being a big flirt and is just out of my league...